Down in the Dumps...

had my weigh in yesterday...stayed that same weight.. i guess its better than a gain right? i was hoping to reach my 5% which is only 3 pounds away before my vacation to South Carolina starting Saturday. Im really nervous about my vacation... im hoping i dont blow it on vacation. im determined to keep up my diet until i get to my goal this time. i will not quit.

Rant Mode

feeling a bit down today... Went and met up with some amazing girls i went to school with in high school. i missed them so much! then i went to dinner, church and shopping with my neighbor. My mind couldn't escape how happy my friends from high school were though. They were all glowing with amazing stories about the crazy stuff they've done and the boys they've dated or gone out with and i feel extremely left out. Men aren't attracted to me it seems and I'm extremely shy. I feel like Ive hit that point in life where all of my friend are dating and I'm just the monkey in the middle, waiting to get out, but it feels like it will never come around. I'm hoping and praying that my life will turn around this summer. I need a break. So many things are occurring i cant take it anymore. Weight Watchers will turn things around, and hopefully make me happier and bring me out of my shell. I really need change to happen...keeping my head up as long as possible.
Love,
Courtney

Amazing People Come in ALL Different Sizes

Have you ever noticed that kids with special needs always have smiles one their faces? I volunteer for the Project Search at University of Cincinnati and it always amazes me what these kids accomplish. Most of them have Autism, and Downs Syndrome and they are the most amazing people you will ever meet. They work hard, and have a great sense of humor. Just today one girl asked me " do cute boys talk to you?" i replied " uh...well not really..." she answered " WHY NOT?! you are so pretty!! i will make them talk to you!!" They see people for who they are, and not what they look like. Why can't society be like that? People are so judgmental about what people wear, or how they look. Kids with disabilities take you as you are. I LOVE that about them. I have spent so little time with them and they already accept me into their little group, which amazes me.
that was my little rant of the day :)
Love,Courtney

Start of Blog= amazingness

first off i should probably provide you with a few facts about me.
Name: Courtney
Student at: University of Cincinnati
Age: 19
Birthday: December 24th 1991 ( yes being a Christmas baby does suck)
i work at Kings Island at the Racer, so come visit me sometime, and i also work at Manna Cupcake Cafe sometimes
i have two brothers Zach (15) ) far right*and Noah (12) *far left* Noah is Autistic and inspired me to study Special Education
Pets: Moose, labrador retriever puppy*middle*, 3 fish Sullivan Bon Que Que Michael Wazowski, Hitler, and
Sir Doofus

Hobbies: i love photography, i will later post some of my favorite pictures. Sports are my passion, softball, volleyball, wallyball LOVE THEM!
Im struggling with liking my own body, and I'm on my way to making things right. So far i have lost 9 pounds in 2 weeks and i expect to keep going.
Love,
Courtney
p.s. alpha and omega? very cute movie!