dont you hate being lied to?? i feel like whenever i finally find i can trust a friend or someone else they lie and ruin it. i hate opening up to people because every time i do i get lied to. and it really hurts! so i decided to write i poem if you will about it its rough but it really helped take the anger out of me... enjoy...
You know what’s funny
is how every time
I decide
to open my eyes
and believe
somebody may care for me
they turn around and start to lie
and it makes me wonder why
I fall for it every time
why is it always me they find
I never asked for this life
yet I get trapped all the time
I fall for the wrong people
they always drag me down
and I end up with this feeling
that I’m always going to drown
and never find the light
the person to make things right
how can I ever open up my heart
if things never worked out from the start
how can I ever believe
somebody out there is for me?
Friday, April 15, 2011
happy note
wow..havent been on here in a LONG time. to date my weight loss has reached 15 pounds total and i reached by 5% goal last tuesday which is EXCITING! and since ive been so down in the dumps about myself i decided to make a list of 100 things i love about myself to keep me motivated and find the real things i love about myself i never see. I got it from another blog a read but here it goes!
100 things I LOVE about myself
100. I laugh all the time
99. I’m a caring person
98. I’m BEAUTIFUL
97. I’m helpful
96. I have the best brothers in the world
95. My mom is the best
94. I’m a good listener
93. I have great friends
92. I try my hardest at everything I do
91. My work family is the best in the world
90. I can’t go a day without chocolate
89. I work out instead of eat when I’m stressed or hurt
88. I’m clumsy, and that’s okay
87. I love making people smile
86. I smile more than the legal amount a day
85. I’m an amazing photographer
84. When I love, I love with everything in me
83. I’m a giving person
82. I still sleep with stuffed animals
81. I sleep with a million covers on no matter the weather
80. I dance- with my own skill, not prettily but I try
79. I sing in the shower every time, and I suck but I don’t care
78. If I see a stray animal I HAVE to help it
77. I’m good with kids
76. I crack up when people get hurt, and I can’t help that
75. I’m artistic
74. I write well
73. I have a good imagination
72. I love Disney movies
71. Finding Nemo is my favorite movie, and I don’t care who knows it
70. I’m a hopeless romantic and maybe someday, it will happen for me
69. I’ve seen the Jonas Brothers 6 times in concert, better every time
68. I met Nick Jonas, one of the best days of my life
67. Demi Lovato is my idol, and meeting her was amazing
66. I don’t hold my emotions inside me
65. I will do anything to make someone laugh
64. I cry watching Romantic movies
63. I’m shy, but once I get to know someone I let them in
62. The ups and downs in my life have only made me stronger
61. I have almost fully escaped my past and I refuse to look back
60. I hate opening up to people sometimes because I get attached easily
59. Even though I’m afraid of getting my heart broken I still put myself out there every single time
58. I’m disorganized, and I like it that way
57. I drive well
56. When I get an idea in my head I try my hardest to follow through with it
55. I love to volunteer, and help others
54. I am an amazing horseback rider
53. I love roller coasters
52. I take risks when possible and when I’m comfortable
51. I took a risk to parasail and LOVED IT
50. I love to travel
49. Although people told me I couldn’t do it, I’m in college proving them wrong
48. I’m losing weight and trying to get healthy for ME
47. I’m a Christmas Eve baby
46. I love giving presents randomly
45. I LOVE surprising people I love
44. Though broken and scared, I never give up
43. Shopping is one of my best therapies
42. College has opened up new doors for me
41. I LOVE the gay community
40. I laugh when I’m nervous
39. I live outside in the summer
38. I’m good with special needs kids
37. My autistic brother inspired my major, and I love him for that
36. People put me down, it may crack me at first but it makes me stronger
35. Music makes my day
34. I could read all day
33. I’m an amazing cook/ baker
32. I’m good at making YouTube videos that make me look like a fool
31. I’m a prankster, and good at it
30. I run through the rain like a little kid
29. I will make a good wife in the future
28. My eyes change color depending on what I wear
27. I chew my nails when I’m nervous
26. The Jonas brothers are my favorite band IN.THE.WORLD
25. I fight with all I have in me
24. I have patience
23. I separate myself from those who do me wrong
22. I can’t hurt people
21. I’m reliable
20. I’m sarcastic
19. Heck, I look FABULOUS in glasses
18. I LOVE to color
17. Disney Channel is THE BOMB
16. I’m left handed
15. Laughter is my favorite sound in the world
14. I give great advice
13. I love to watch the sunset
12. Thunderstorms, though beautiful, scare me
11. I can type FAST
10. My calves look amazing in heels
09. I have great manners
08. I have a huge heart
07. I push myself past my limit
06. I always keep my promises
05. I have great guest relation skills at work
04. I live to make people laugh
03. Laughter is my favorite sound in the world
02. I always help those in need
01. I’m the greatest person I will ever be. MYSELF. And proud of it.
99. I’m a caring person
98. I’m BEAUTIFUL
97. I’m helpful
96. I have the best brothers in the world
95. My mom is the best
94. I’m a good listener
93. I have great friends
92. I try my hardest at everything I do
91. My work family is the best in the world
90. I can’t go a day without chocolate
89. I work out instead of eat when I’m stressed or hurt
88. I’m clumsy, and that’s okay
87. I love making people smile
86. I smile more than the legal amount a day
85. I’m an amazing photographer
84. When I love, I love with everything in me
83. I’m a giving person
82. I still sleep with stuffed animals
81. I sleep with a million covers on no matter the weather
80. I dance- with my own skill, not prettily but I try
79. I sing in the shower every time, and I suck but I don’t care
78. If I see a stray animal I HAVE to help it
77. I’m good with kids
76. I crack up when people get hurt, and I can’t help that
75. I’m artistic
74. I write well
73. I have a good imagination
72. I love Disney movies
71. Finding Nemo is my favorite movie, and I don’t care who knows it
70. I’m a hopeless romantic and maybe someday, it will happen for me
69. I’ve seen the Jonas Brothers 6 times in concert, better every time
68. I met Nick Jonas, one of the best days of my life
67. Demi Lovato is my idol, and meeting her was amazing
66. I don’t hold my emotions inside me
65. I will do anything to make someone laugh
64. I cry watching Romantic movies
63. I’m shy, but once I get to know someone I let them in
62. The ups and downs in my life have only made me stronger
61. I have almost fully escaped my past and I refuse to look back
60. I hate opening up to people sometimes because I get attached easily
59. Even though I’m afraid of getting my heart broken I still put myself out there every single time
58. I’m disorganized, and I like it that way
57. I drive well
56. When I get an idea in my head I try my hardest to follow through with it
55. I love to volunteer, and help others
54. I am an amazing horseback rider
53. I love roller coasters
52. I take risks when possible and when I’m comfortable
51. I took a risk to parasail and LOVED IT
50. I love to travel
49. Although people told me I couldn’t do it, I’m in college proving them wrong
48. I’m losing weight and trying to get healthy for ME
47. I’m a Christmas Eve baby
46. I love giving presents randomly
45. I LOVE surprising people I love
44. Though broken and scared, I never give up
43. Shopping is one of my best therapies
42. College has opened up new doors for me
41. I LOVE the gay community
40. I laugh when I’m nervous
39. I live outside in the summer
38. I’m good with special needs kids
37. My autistic brother inspired my major, and I love him for that
36. People put me down, it may crack me at first but it makes me stronger
35. Music makes my day
34. I could read all day
33. I’m an amazing cook/ baker
32. I’m good at making YouTube videos that make me look like a fool
31. I’m a prankster, and good at it
30. I run through the rain like a little kid
29. I will make a good wife in the future
28. My eyes change color depending on what I wear
27. I chew my nails when I’m nervous
26. The Jonas brothers are my favorite band IN.THE.WORLD
25. I fight with all I have in me
24. I have patience
23. I separate myself from those who do me wrong
22. I can’t hurt people
21. I’m reliable
20. I’m sarcastic
19. Heck, I look FABULOUS in glasses
18. I LOVE to color
17. Disney Channel is THE BOMB
16. I’m left handed
15. Laughter is my favorite sound in the world
14. I give great advice
13. I love to watch the sunset
12. Thunderstorms, though beautiful, scare me
11. I can type FAST
10. My calves look amazing in heels
09. I have great manners
08. I have a huge heart
07. I push myself past my limit
06. I always keep my promises
05. I have great guest relation skills at work
04. I live to make people laugh
03. Laughter is my favorite sound in the world
02. I always help those in need
01. I’m the greatest person I will ever be. MYSELF. And proud of it.
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